wow itz been a good lil minute since ive written a new entry...dang but i just didnt have anything to say or i have but didnt really know how to put it. Anyway, everything is cool i guess..school is stressing, tiredness kickin in and my lil lack of communication lately is a problem. I just havent had anything to say to anyone really for some reason. itz mostly phone conversationz im having a problem with. My baby feelz that tha relationship iz going to fail or that itz not goin to work if i cant communicate or if i dont put in a lil more effort. Iunno why i have nothing to say,im just so tired and my mind just wantz to rest. If she was in person it wudnt be so difficult fa me cuz i can talk almost non-stop in person..but im not and eva since tha arguement we had a couple dayz ago i have been on mute. Ive never argued with her like that and i got so mad at her (it was a feeling ive never really felt towardz her before) i got so mad i wanted to hit somebody...no not her but damn. i want to talk to her..maybe im bein affected by everything im goin thru right now..i feel like i give and i give and people just take and take and dont give back. i feel everybody expectz so much from me and i feel i may not be able do it all. it showz thru no matter how hard i try to conceal it behind a smile. i dont want my relationship to fail becuz i cant find any thing to say...also im irritated at tha fact that it seemz that her otha phone friendz find out watz wrong with her before i do and wen i ask she doesnt tell me. She also does this thing where she bringz something up and talkz about it and i have no clue wat shez talkin about and she sayz "oh i didnt tell u about so and so.." no she hasnt but sean knowz and whoever else and iunn like that. I figure this all has to do with my lil communication problem but iunno but yea until next time.....
Posted at 11:18 am by pisCes-dreamin
