i got so mad last night or early this mornin becuz my gurl callz and she said she was just callin to tell me that she loved me..she was gettin off tha phone with me but we sleep together on tha phone just about every night..i asked her why, she wudnt answer me (when people do that that makes me so mad) i ask her was it that someone wanted to be on the phone with her and she still wudnt answer me. She kept avoidin my question, i took that as a yes and i asked who? and i already knew but wen she said the personz name i just burned with hate...thatz what we do,sleep on tha phone. I thought that was special but i guess itz not cuz itz done with otha people. i guess i think differently than other people about wat iz special..but i ended up writing a poem (which isnt my best i wud say but it'l do) and i call it "affected by your name"....
A personal animosity
for you,
growz inside of me
my body burnz with hate
everytime i hear your name
You almost took away my love
the person i hold dear
with just a name,
you brought out so much fear
I hate you for that
even though i dont know you
I thought i cud wash my handz
and be over you
Your name has the power
to bring on so many bad thoughtz,
they come and they come
but they just wont stop
Your name has the ability to break me
even when i try to be strong
If i was to find you and hurt you,
i know i'd be wrong
Even though
i thought then i'd be okay
I see now...
i'm still affected by your name
